Life, Loves, and Lipstick

lots of things.  Late night ponderings. Feeling sad. You know when you just want need a hug and that feeling of support from someone and want to be able to trust people around you 100%?  Also, not being able to scream into the world all the reasons why you get these feelings and worries.  I guess this is my vague way of doing that, trying to ease the stress and sadness a bit without actually sharing as such.  Some of the things I'd forgotten myself but had reminders of this eve and, my days,  people can be truly awful.  So immoral and with such horrid ways of looking at things and saying things... Distracting myself with writing. Writing and looking up those daft Leonardo with a smug face memes. Sillyyyyy. They're helping though. As is the writing. I do worry though. People are a disappointment really, aren't they? Generally.  They all just let you down.  That's how I'm feeling about the World this evening I guess. Wanting the best for someone,...

It's been a tough day or so. Struggling. All kinds of stresses going on right now that are getting on top of me. Car. Relationships. Health. Work. An anniversary of horribleness/a particularly awful time in my life. Great big combo all at once. Didn't sleep well last night (due to the above) but then had to start my longest work shift at a new job as of yet and be there for 7:30am. It was actually quite quiet and went fast.  I actually enjoyed it apart from the last couple of hours when I was suddenly under a lot of stress and facing drama and unexpected and confrontational behaviour that I wasn't expecting that completely ruined my mood for the rest of the shift. On top of that I had further confrontation at my door regards an unreasonable attitude from someone this evening adding to more stress.  I just keep crying it out.